Thursday, June 24th, 2009
Woke up at 6:30.
Went to shower.
No running water whatsoever.
Greasy hair and lots of deodorant ensued.
Woohoo. I guess it’s all part of the experience. Maybe I’ll look less attractive to the Trini boys now.
There’s always a silver lining.
(Our leader put together a devotion for us. Below are some bits and pieces from it. We studied Psalms 105, talking about Israel’s history and how God delivered them in good times and bad. We were to write out the good things God did for them, but also the things he allowed them to suffer through. Below is the personal application portion.)
-Even through the constant hatred from opposing countries and people, the Israelites they clung to the hope that God would always love them.
-Even through the beatings and bruising and imprisonment, though they were innocent, the clung to the hope that God would set them free.
-Even though God seemed to destroy their means of living, they clung to the hope that God would provide.
-Even though God allowed them to wander in a place far from home, they clung to the hope that God would guide them.
-Even though they doubted God’s plan, they clung to the hope that He wasn’t finished just yet.
Personally, I could praise Him for giving me hope, true hope, in finding a purpose that isn’t just insipid, monotonous, everyday living. I live for a reason: to help the hurting, the broken, the fatherless, the weak, the sinners.
He brought me away from a self-centered life to one of unending, unreserved love for Him.He brought me from the dark, creeping, black of my sin and the guilt that clung to me before.
He brought me from a life without living, just breathing in and breathing out, without a reason, just getting by.
His purpose for me? To give myself to the unwanted, the lonely, the abused, the unloved, the broken, the ashamed, the sinners, the fatherless, the hopeless, and to show them hope, love, grace and mercy that can only come from God.
That is my calling.
That is why I live.
(We were also told to write a personal psalm. I did mine a little different.)
My Healer.
My Redeemer.
My Father.
My Savior.
You are my Everything.
And to you I owe my all, my very life.
Words cannot express my gratitude.
Hopeless. Lifeless. Meaningless. Lost.
That is what I was.
A sheep strayed from my Master’s calling voice.
Deaf to his calls by the sound of my own bleating.
Like I bird without wings, I lacked hope for a future.
My life seemed so lifeless, so dull without You.
Crawling I came before You, but You raised me up from the dust and placed a crown upon my head.
Calling me Daughter.
Calling me Loved.
Through the voices of many, you spoke to me, teaching me through Your glorious Word.
Though many times I have fallen away, still You remain faithful and unchanging.
Ever-constant in an ever-changing world.
Though some rebuke me, I will cling to hope.
Though some beat and abuse me, I will cling to love.
Though I will walk away, I will cling to grace.
Though I will break Your commandments, I will cling to mercy.
Though I may walk through valleys of darkness, through the fires of trial, even through the shadow of death, You will be with me, leading me to those white shores.
And I will live in the house of the Lord, my Father, forever and every dancing before His throne for He is worthy of all that I can offer, though it is nothing compared to Him.
But I will give it, because it’s all I have to give.
I will give my life, because it’s all You ask of me.
(Back to regular journal entry)
After no shower, I did my devos and had an interesting breakfast of a PB&J with pineapple. Mmmm.
Pastor Ramdath brought us to the church at 9 and the work began. As Pastor Rickie had specified that the construction work was “man’s work,” the females were assigned to help in the preschool. Abby and I took to the 6-7 year olds and were in for quite the surprise. The teacher wanted us to give the daily devotion. The catch? We weren’t told until it was time for us to share. We had to whip something together, which was actually quite easy. I shared the story of Jesus calming the story from Matthew 8:23. Since they were young and were rather surprised/shocked to have 2 white girls int the class, they seemed rater non-responsive, but nonetheless, it was a good experience for me. Just being able to pull something out without notice was good practice.
After that, Abby and I were assigned 2 kids to “teach.” They were going over their reading lesson, and we were to guide them along. I was assigned to the pastor’s son, Joshua, and another little boy named Anthony.
Poor little kid was Anthony. He tried so hard to figure out his lesson, but he just struggled and struggled. The spark was there, you could tell. But the fire just wasn’t being ranned in the right way. We were reading about telling the timeand he was so trying to get it. The cogs were turning, but he was just troubled. Sometimes it was frustrating to me because I just couldn’t get through to him. He wanted to figure it out in his own strength and was failing. Yet if he just accepted the help of the teacher (me), he could have understood.
It was a nice analogy to think through… me being able to put myself in God’s shoes for a minute as we try to deal with things on our own.
Anyways, school was dismissed for lunch and I ended up at Daleep and Yvonne’s house making lunch. Except that the food had already been prepared to I ened up just talking to Justin and Daniel for a while. We just sat around at their house and at the church, since it began to rain fairly hard for about 15-30ish minutes. It’s quite refreshing to have the cool breeze. I won’t complain about being hot at home for months after this.
For lunch, Yvonne prepared a mixture of chicken and rice, which I think will become the missionary staple of Trinidad. They eat a lot of chicken as it is rather inexpensive and easy to prepare.
Since school was dismissed, the ladies had absolutely nothing to do. Lovely feeling, knowing that people paid for us to come just to sit on our rears. Thankfully, Ramdath brought us shopping for the food we would need during the week, so we felt a bit more productive. There are so many different things there, food-wise. Though some are similar, those that are the same are called by different names. For example, eggplant is melonjene. Thus it’s hard to tell what is what.
They also have very interesting soda flavours. Peardrax is a popular pear soda. Mom stated it tasted like beer. No wonder I liked it. =P
And then, after nearly 48 hours without one, I got to take a shower! Evidently since the city has been working on building larger water pipes, they shut off water flow in certain neighborhoods. Hopefully, we’ll have running water tomorrow. Who knows.
For dinner we had doubles, a Trini food composed of a pita-like bread with chick peas and curry on top. It was quite appetizing.
Then at 7pm was their Thursday night prayer meeting. They spent the first 15ish minutes just praying, truly thanking God for every blessing for His great love.
One woman, Vendra, began praying normally, but as time went on she grew more and more animated, gradually crescendoing her voice until she was shouting at the top of her lungs. It was just amazing to observe their simple faith and wholehearted belief that God will answer prayer. Compared to Americans who try to rationalize everything and sometimes pray like God might be listening or might answer their prayer, it was quite refreshing.
Another amusing thing happened during the worship time. Daniel and Pastor Richard started playing some unknown Calypso song, and it transition into the Hokey Pokey. (I kid you not.) I tried so hard not to laugh, it was just too out of the blue. The chorus went like this.
“Put your whole self in.
Put your whole self out.
Put your whole self in and shake it all about.
Raise your hands to Jesus and turn yourself around.
That’s what it’s all about.”
Pastor Krishna Singh from Bermuda spoke about Failure. (Notes removed for lack of space… plus, I didn’t really take them. So. =P)
After service we ate cake and more cake… and more cake. Oh, and we socialized. Then we headed back home for bed.
(On a side note, I heard that Michael Jackson passed away today. I wept inwardly…. and danced to Thriller in memory of him. *tear tear* I never will forget the great influence he’s had on my life.)